My Identity.

Being a woman is hard.  There are many things about it that I love, don’t get me wrong, but sometimes it is just hard.  Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and think about the different things that I would want to change about my appearance.  Or comparing myself to another woman, thinking about how I want what they have, or how I could be just like them.  There are even times when my husband who I thought would meet my needs, disappoints me (this is not his fault, as it is unrealistic expectations I might have of him).  When being a stay-at-home mom isn’t as glorious as I thought it would be.  So many things, yet still none fill me.

Society doesn’t help this either.  I don’t think there has ever been a time when something our culture values, has made me feel that much more important.  It seems to almost have the opposite effect.  This unending cycle of wanting the newest thing, keeping up with fashion, money, being skinny enough, showing more skin to attract more attention, or popularity.  All these things just lead me back to the same place.  An empty pit, where I have nothing but a desire for more things that mean nothing.  

Why is it so hard to realize where my true identity comes from?  

I believe in Christ.  I believe that He was crucified for my sins, and rose again so that I could have a relationship with Him.  Even though I am the one that deserved the punishment, He took it for me instead.  HE LOVES ME!  How I want to understand this more, and let it penetrate into my soul.  I am now a child of God, the One who created everything that existed.  Do I believe this?  Not all the time.  I want to though.  What purpose my life will have if I live out this truth.  He made me in His image, each intricate little part of me.  My features, personality, abilities, and desires.  I am not exactly like anyone else.  I am worth something.  I am important enough that my God did not want to be separated from  me for eternity, so He sacrificed Himself.  That is how important I am to Him.  

I want to believe this and live it out in my daily life.  That is my prayer this evening.  So when I start to run to the things that are only temporary, I will remember where my true value comes from.  I hope this resonates with someone else as well. 🙂

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Hi! So glad that you stopped by! My name is Becky, I am a Jesus follower, wife to a pastor, and mom to 4 kids. I am a writer and a speaker. I have a heart to minister specifically to women. I want to encourage others to walk with Jesus on a daily basis, because I believe this is life-changing. I desire to be myself, imperfections and all. I believe that being authentic is the best to relate to others. I love coffee, exercising, shopping for deals, and connecting with friends one on one when I can. Feel free to browse through my site, and I hope it encourages you!

One thought on “My Identity.

  1. It does resonate…oh how it resonates. I’m so thankful for sermons, books, devotions, etc. on this topic because how easily we can become distracted by culture, fleshy desires, unrealistic expectations, etc. I’m thankful for things like this post that make me stop and think: Yes – that is true, that is HIS word and it allows me to re-focus my attention to where it should be. I think staying at home (I’ve only been doing it for 5 weeks) has made me realize how much of an identity crisis it can throw you for. Sometimes I feel like all I do is wipe hineys, clean counters, do dishes, do laundry, talk in a baby voice, read books, blow noses, fix meals, and at the end of the day after all of that it’s hard to feel beautiful and accomplished. I was just telling Tim the other day that I’m having to constantly remind myself that each thing I do it is as unto the Lord…each little responsibility and each little conversation with my kiddos is as unto the Lord. He has placed us at this time in our lives with our kids because he knew none could do it better and our sole responsibility is pointing these little people towards him. If we can reach days end and say we’ve tried our best to do that – then I’m convinced whether we’ve showered or not, whether we’ve got on makeup and the cutest outfit or not, whether we’ve worked out our not – our Heavenly Father would say “well done”.

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