Some days…….

There are days like today when I long to do something else…….when it seems like everyone else has something better than I do.  It was a hard day with kids today.  Crazy, running, screaming, getting hurt, and struggling to find a quiet moment to myself.  I love my kids, but there are times when my selfishness thinks I need more than what I have now.  In all honesty, it is hard to be in the position I am as a pastor’s wife as well.  I am so proud of my husband, and I know that the Lord has great plans for him and his ministry through the church.  There is no better person for his job.  I really do prefer to just blend into the background most of the time.  Every now and then though I think it would be so exciting to get to experience what he does each week.  And sometimes I wonder, when do I get to make a difference Lord?

The point of this post isn’t to complain about my struggle with jealousy and envy at times, but to be real.  To share what the Lord is teaching me through all of this.  As I was wallowing in self-pity today, I started to realize that He has me right where He wants me right now.  Granted, I am really excited about the counseling courses that I am in now, and where it will take me in the future, but I need to understand the important responsibility I have right now.  I am a wife to a wonderful husband who needs to be supported in the ministry he is in right now.  It can be hard if you don’t have someone who “has your back.”  I am a mom to three wonderful kids, and I have been given the responsibility of being the main person raising them.  Something that I don’t take lightly.  I want to show them what it looks like to walk with Christ each day, even including Him in the little details in life.  And most importantly, I want to live my life in a way that resembles Christ to each person I come in contact with each day.  It is hard to find any greater purpose than that each day.  To reflect the one who has sacrificed so much for me……..

I hope this can minister to anyone else who might be feeling restless with where you are at right now.  And if you are, take it to the Lord, and let Him show you how important it is that you are where you are at this very moment.  I know it helps me to remember.  Even with the things that can seem like they mean nothing at all, it means something to Him.  This is something that I continue to learn each day.  Remember to live your life for the one who gave His for all.  And just think, some day when we see him face-to-face, I want to be able to hear the words, “well done good and faithful servant.”  That will make everything that has seemed so meaningless in our lives, become more important than we can even imagine.

Published by becweber

Hi! So glad that you stopped by! My name is Becky, I am a Jesus follower, wife to a pastor, and mom to 4 kids. I am a writer and a speaker. I have a heart to minister specifically to women. I want to encourage others to walk with Jesus on a daily basis, because I believe this is life-changing. I desire to be myself, imperfections and all. I believe that being authentic is the best to relate to others. I love coffee, exercising, shopping for deals, and connecting with friends one on one when I can. Feel free to browse through my site, and I hope it encourages you!

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