I have a confession to make, I am an introvert. Not that there is anything wrong with it. It’s part of who I am. What can be wrong about it though is that I tend to use it as an excuse to cover up something I fear: rejection. Particularly in relationships.
I’m not exactly sure what has played into this fear, or where it comes from. But lately I have been realizing that because of this fear, I often hold back a lot of who I am from others. If someone gets too close, it strikes up a sort of panic in me. What if they reject me?
Jesus is slowly helping me release this fear to him, showing me that I need to trust him.
If I want to have close relationships, I am going to have to put myself out there. I can’t let the fear control me. I need to place my fears and relationships at the feet of Jesus, and ask him to help me. And any rejection from the past, or that I will experience in the future, I need to give over to him. I want him to help me process it in a healthy way so it doesn’t lead to bitterness. My worth is in him. He is my foundation. I can make an effort in these imperfect relationships because he is with me.
I don’t want to do life alone. I want to have close friends to do it with. It is the way Jesus meant for us to do life, in community.
What are some ways you might be hindering your relationships? What fears do you hold onto? Confess them to Jesus, and let him take over. ❤️